It all started in late 1980’s when I was detained by the Iranian police for no reason. They thought that I had some connections with Kurdish political parties that were opposing the Islamic Republic. I did not have any connection with any political party or anything of that sort. Months went by without them even letting my family know where I was. Finally, the day came when I was brought into court. The Judge asked me three questions that were asked of many people:
What is your name? -- I said Zana.
What is your ethnicity? -- I said I am a Kurd.
What is your religion? -- I said that I am a Sunni Muslim.
I was taken out of the court, thrown back into my cell and I was beaten all night. Next morning, they put me on a bus headed back to Mahabad, my city in Kurdistan. On the bus, I was sitting next to a man. He opened his bag and took out a sandwich which was wrapped in newspaper. I was very hungry since I had not eaten regular food in almost six months. I did not want to look at his food but I just couldn't stand the smell of the kabobs.
He turned around and asked me if I would like one. Without hesitating as we usually do in Iranian culture, I asked for one. Instead of one, he gave me two out of the three that he had with him. I asked for his name and he said that his name was Yacub. I had never heard that name before. So I asked, "What kind of name is this?" He said "Hebrew". "Ahh, so you are a Jew?" I asked back. "No, I am a Christian", he said. I had heard a lot of negative things about Christians in the Quran so I did not want to get into a conversation about Christianity.
But something inside me made me wonder why he believed in it (Christianity)? I asked if he believed that Jesus was the son of God. The answer was yes. How could God have a wife? How could God have sex? He started explaining that to say that God had sex with Mary is the greatest sin. But rather Jesus is the son of God in a spiritual way and not like the way we are born. And we never say that God ever had a wife, we believe in a holy God.
I wanted to stop the conversation and begin a different subject. I could not think of any other subject, so I asked him why he was going to Kurdistan. He said that a friend needed some help with something. I asked for his name he said Zana. That was my name. But I thought it was a different person. He opened his bag and very quietly gave me a Bible. He put it in my bag. He knew that if someone saw him with that book it could cost him his life. I asked what it was. He told me that I would find out later.
We got to Mahabad and I got off the Bus before he did. I got my bag and was waiting outside for Yacub (Jacob) to come off, but the bus was empty and he still had not come out. I went to the driver and asked him where the man sitting next to me had gone? To my astonishment and confusion he said, "There was no man sitting next to you." Was I crazy or what? I said maybe I was dreaming. But I still had the taste of the sandwich in my mouth. I still had the book in my bag. What was Yacub? Who was he? Why didn't he go to his friend's house?
Then I remembered that the friend's name was Zana and only then realized he meant me. I went home and found my mom in the house crying. She was so surprised and happy to see me. I asked what had happened since I had been gone. I found out that soldiers were looking for me and that she was raped by a Jaush (Kurdish for "traitor"). When I heard that, I felt like somebody was hitting me in the back with sticks. I went to my room and wept like a baby. I could not believe that this really had happened.
That night when I asked for my older brother Hasan at dinner, they all started crying. They told me that he was hanged. I felt like the food was going through my back. I could not eat. I got up and went to my room for some more weeping. I felt like the whole world was on my shoulders and I felt like I was carrying the rocks. I had nothing to do, so I took out the book and started reading. After reading the first chapters of the book of Genesis, I went to read the Injil. I started reading the book of Matthew. I was surprised. I had never seen anything like this.
I stopped at chapter ten and just went to bed. I still could hear my Mom and sister crying downstairs. The neighbors came to cheer them up and talk to them. Next morning life was normal, so I went and visited my brother's grave. Life became normal again until one night in my dream Yacub appeared and told me that I must leave my country. I knew something was up so I went and hid at a friend's house. I did not want to leave the country; I loved it.
Sometime after, I sneaked back to my house at night and discovered that soldiers had been in my house and they were looking for me. Now this time, it was my sister that was raped by the soldiers for no reason. My brother who was executed had some ties to the Kurdish political parties. But what had I done wrong, or what had my sister done wrong? Is this what they call an Islamic Republic? All I could think of was suicide. But I would now leave so many people behind. If it was not for my family I would have killed myself.
I knew that Yacub was telling me something. But what? Help me Yacub; what do you want me to do? I went to my room and packed whatever I could because I was going to leave the country. I took the Bible with me and headed for the mountains crossing the boarders into Iraq. I stopped in the middle of nowhere for a rest. I took out my book and read in it. When I came to Matthew 11:28 "Come to me all who are heavy laden and weary and I will give you rest," I was shocked and did not know what to think because the book kind of read my mind. It had what my heart longed for. I found what I was looking for. I found what met my personal needs.
Right there in the middle of the night I gave my life to Jesus Christ. I couldn't believe the changes that were happening inside of me. I felt a kind of peace that could not be expressed by words. I was relieved. I could feel all of the weight that I felt on my shoulders coming off. I now understood God and what he was like. It was a good thing that I did not commit suicide. The Lord had a plan for me. I now knew who Yacub was -- an angel. It was very hard to believe. I myself found it hard to believe. But an angel would be the best answer.
I now forgave all of those that done wrong to me. Instead of cursing, I prayed for the salvation of the people who had beaten me in prison. I am grateful for having such a wonderful experience. My sincere prayer is that God Almighty will show you the truth. I am willing to help you find the truth. I can be reached at the following address: Masihim@yahoo.com
...The greatest mockery of MY Name yet will be done by Ellen DeGeneres by the ultimate blasphemy to portray I, YAHUVEH the God of Creation. She will pay with her soul for this and all those that take part in this film. I, YAHUVEH will send forth MY wrath on those that call themselves the greatest to the least. T his includes not only the studio, producers, script writers, actors, wardrobe, caterers; make up artists, even the stand-in actors and actresses. I, YAHUVEH will pour out MY wrath on even the State this is filmed in. I, YAHUVEH warn any advertiser I, YAHUVEH will command MY babies, b ride, chosen ones and elect as well even those who do not serve nor obey MY Holy Word but know there is a God YAHUVEH to fear, to protest and boycott your products.
A woman named Ellen Degeneres will openly mock ME, portraying to be Almighty God. She is not only openly gay but she is the first in America to be embraced by the White House which included the President of the U.S.A., as they held a dinner for her and her same sex partner she claims to have married. I, YAHUVEH call Ellen DeGeneres, Ellen Degenerate. She is reprobate and knows no shame as she is rewarded by satan with fortune and fame for she was the first to claim same sex marriage and knows no shame and is proud of her name. Start protesting and boycotting and warning all who will listen anyone that watches this film and listens to her mock I, YAHUVEH, and does not protest in fear will reap what she will sow.
I prophesied through MY Daughter Elisabeth, and that prophecy has been posted for years now for all to read [Prophecy 20], Ellen DeGeneres spoon fed the children and people the spirit of homosexuality while laughing about it. Because of this I, YAHUVEH prophesied she would be the first to taste the Boiling Black Blood Plague when she will beg to die as black blood will spew from her mouth. All the sexually immoral will suffer this end time plague. I, YAHUVEH prophesied this through this hand maiden of MINE because I knew what Ellen DeGeneres' master satan would have her do and that is to mock the Creator of all Creation.
She stands there in sparkling white, Holy and undefiled. This is the Bride that I come for; she is in this world but not of this world. There is a difference between her and others who shun her holiness. Others who are not of MY Spirit, others mock her holiness, for she refuses to take part of the sins in this world. She is faithful, holy to ME, she does not compromise with sin, she does not see how far she can lean over hell before she falls in it. She wants no part of hell. She wants no part of satan, she wants no part of satan's vices. The peace that she longs for, she only turns to ME, the Prince of Peace.
Now see this vision. It now changes. Now the enemy of your soul beholds MY Holy Bride and says, 'I must defile her, she cannot stand there without spot or wrinkle.' So he puts a cigarette in her mouth, so she has the stench of smoke. He puts the intoxicating beverages in her hands, so she staggers around like a drunk. Now behold MY Bride, where pornography has been put into her hands, the enemy says, "Don't worry, no one can see this secret, just hide." Now MY Bride, that once was so holy, has been so defiled. So I turn away, for I cannot come for a Bride like this.
MY Bride does not have the stench of a cigarette. MY Bride does not stagger like a drunk. MY Bride does not read porn behind the doors. That is a false bride and I only accept the genuine. So I give you a choice, for the only fragrance anyone around you should smell is the fragrance of MY anointing oil, the perfume I have given you. Your garments cannot be without holiness, the garments of MY righteousness clothe you, they cannot have even a spot or a wrinkle. They cannot have any reason for this world to accuse you of sin.
Do you not realize, what your eyes behold, MY eyes behold? Do you not realize, your bodies are the Temple of the RUACH ha KODESH? Do not be deceived, for sin can have no part in thee. You wonder if you are MY Bride. You pray all over the world, "Am I your Bride? You want to know, Elisabeth, how some one who tells you a certain date when I am coming for MY Bride and yet the Word given does not line up with MY Holy Scriptures. This is the beginning of the deception that entered in.
How many times have I said, if it doesn't line up with MY Holy Word, for I am the Holy Word, I am the living Torah, even if they come from an Angel of light, do not receive that which is not of ME. How many times have I said, "Test the spirit that speaks?" You want to know how your brother was deceived? It does not mean that he doesn't love ME. It does not mean that he doesn't desire to serve ME, but it does mean this is the first step when he walked away, and deception entered in. When satan got a foothold and said to him, "Do not listen to the Holy Word." Instead he started listening to a voice that was not of ME.
I am not a man that I can lie. MY Word is Truth. What I say, happens. The Holy Angel did not come, for Elisabeth, where did I ever tell you I would tell another to tell the Ringmaiden, expect YAHUSHUA to come on this day for HIS Bride. Why would I not tell you first? That is why I have said again, and again. Test the Spirit that speaks. Who is going to listen to one that has a testimony that looks and smells like the world? Make no longer excuses for him. MY people have gone a whoring after other Gods, but does that mean I have called you to be a whore monger? The people are drunk with intoxicating beverages. Does that I mean I have called you to be a drunk. The people have turned to other sources of peace, but does this mean I want you to smell like a chimney or shoot up like a drug addict?
Foolishness, foolishness, foolishness, foolishness! I am angry, I am angry, I am angry, I am angry, I am angry! How many of you who desire to be MY Bride, who I called to be MY Bride, have forsaken Holiness? How many of you make excuses for sin? How many of you know MY Word says honor the Sabbath Day and keep it Holy and still you fill the churches on Sunday.
Foolishness, foolishness, foolishness, MY Bride will have no part in this foolishness. I said, be ye Holy as I am Holy. MY Bride will be Holy or I will have no part of her. You want to know who the foolish virgins are? You want to know why they didn't have enough oil in their lamps? They didn't have enough Holiness.
They knew I was coming, but they did not prepare.
It is not enough to just love ME, it is not enough to just serve ME, it is not enough just to preach MY Words.
I demand Holiness.
As your husband (Niko), I would have had no part of you if you were not Holy. How much more of a standard of Holiness do I have. Stop making excuses for sin. Elisabeth, you know again and again I said, "Test the spirit that speaks" stop making excuses for your brother. It doesn't mean that I don't love him, but it means he allowed the spirit of deception to enter in.
When he believed I said, pick up the cigarettes and drink that liquor, how could people tell the difference between MY spirit and that of the enemy for he preaches MY Word but he smells like the world.
I allowed this to happen, pride goeth before a fall. Luigi must have a teachable spirit; he must repent and admit I am not a man that can lie. Where once he only heard MY voice, but little by little the enemy crept in so I allowed this for you to intercede and for you to pray, for as you prayed for him, you prayed for others who desire to be MY Bride. As you beheld the deception that tricked him, so to you beheld the deception in others who want to be MY Bride.
Can you picture a Bride standing there in sparkling white? Now can you picture that gown with nicotine stains? I do not put MY children; I do not put MY Bride in bondage. Can you picture MY Bride where every word that proceeds out of her mouth is Holy? Now can you picture the stench of alcohol on her breath? Her fingers stained with nicotine? Can you picture MY Bride standing there Holy, only wanting to behold the beauty of ME? Now can you picture the same Bride, behind closed doors she hides, with lust in her eyes, as she looks at porn, her mind filled with filth?
Away from ME, do not dare call yourself MY Bride, that doesn't mean you weren't called, it just means I will not accept you if you cannot stand before MY Father as an Esther, Holy and pure and obedient before ME and MY Father YAHUVEH. Can you picture MY Bride standing there before ME in sparkling white, every word that proceeds out of her mouth again is Holy with Praises on her lips for ME, every word full of adoration and love. Now picture that same one standing before ME with curses upon her lips, foul language that comes as though it comes from a sewer. Does not MY Word say out of your heart your mouth does speak? Do not make excuses why you curse. Every word that proceeds out of your mouth, every word that proceeds out of MY Bride's mouth must be Holy.
I am FURIOUS!!!
You want to know why the Holy Angels didn't come yet, Elisabeth? You already knew, I told you I would tell you. I told you that you are the Ringmaiden, I never told you to listen to another. I told you it would line up with MY Holy Feasts. I told you it would line up with MY Holy Word. When you found out that which was spoken to you by another was not lining up with MY Holy Words, why did you not rebuke what you heard? I allowed this to cause you to be more bold, for both you and your husband knew you could not believe what you were being told.
I will have a Bride, she is sealed already, and the foolish look on making excuses to sin, but I do have a Bride. That is why I have told you and your husband again and again, I demand Holiness. This Ministry stands for Holiness. This Ringmaiden is to expect Holiness. This doesn't mean that I don't love the others. But I have but one Bride. As I have told you Elisabeth and you have not been bold enough to speak it, but now I shall.
On Rosh Hashanah on 2005, when you prayed, "Oh make me worthy to be called your Bride as in Revelation 14 for we know this alone YAHUSHUA is your Bride." And I said, "Listen Elisabeth, if I choose to protect and I choose to seal and I take some of MY Bride out as Revelation 14 states, redeemed from this earth, sealed and protected in this way, and I choose to leave some of MY Bride as spoken of in Revelation 7 sealed and protected but I leave them in this world to keep on preaching MY Words, to be the standard against the evil, am I not still protecting and sealing MY Bride?"
What is it any concern of yours how I protect and seal all MY Bride? Some of these are as Revelation 14, and they are MY first fruit, Elisabeth. I have already told you that is the group, you will go. Some are MY Shield Warriors and Shield Maidens in Revelation 7 and they are already sealed, they only await that which I have said has to take place, but they are sealed and no harm shall come to any of them. Both are MY Bride. I have but one Bride. I just choose to take some home first, and I choose to leave some here on this earth.
Now will you speak forth what I told you to say in boldness?
How many of MY Bride has said, "I just don't feel like I am leaving this earth just yet." That is because they are of Revelation 7 because I put a warring Spirit in them, a Spirit of survival. The others in Revelation 14 long for ME to come. They do not see themselves warring on this earth, but I shall come for the Revelation 7 Bride just as surely as I will come for the Two Witnesses. The Two Witnesses, again I repeat unto you, are part of the Bride of Revelation 14 and they will be taken first as the first fruits and then they will return. The guests to the Marriage Supper of the Lamb will come out of the Great Tribulation. They will be those that have washed their garments in MY shed Blood. There is coming a false rapture. The devil means to mock ME in all ways. This is why it is so very urgent to get the word out so that people will not be deceived.
Beware of the evangelists on TV. Why do you think they are so rich and so famous? Because they are going to lead souls to the anti-messiah, they have paid the price, they have been bought. Beware of the evangelists on TV when they are not teaching you the Jewishness of ME.
Oh how easily this world is deceived. If they are not teaching that people must turn away from sin, that they must repent, fall on their faces before ME, then they are not of ME. It is more than just saying, "Oh Jesus, come into MY heart." It is called turning away from sin, renouncing satan, repenting, and letting ME live within them. Beware of these preachers who only want to soothe your itching ears. That is why I have raised up ministries such as this, who preach the truth in Holiness. Beware of anyone that says the Ten Commandments have changed, we can go and we can worship and can call any day the Sabbath Day.
This is the message I leave with you this day, and none of this message would have come forth if I hadn't of sent a Luigi your way for he had been deceived. This doesn't mean that he doesn't belong to ME. This means he must fall on his face before ME. He must humble himself and forsake that which I have not told him to do. I not only give this message to him, I give this to all of you. Out of this whole world only 288,000 I call MY Bride, out of this whole world. But this doesn't mean that I don't love and I don't save, it only means only a very small remnant are only worthy to be called MY Bride.
How much you love ME, you can gauge on how much of a desire for Holiness that you have, for that is what I look at. My Bride will not prostitute herself before other Gods, but I and MY Father YAHUVEH will be number one. I and MY Father are ONE. Remember this when you want to know, "YAHUSHUA, am I your Bride? Answer it for yourself. I have a high standard for Holiness for MY Bride.
Elisabeth, I will never tell another to tell you when you are to expect those Holy Angels to come. I will never tell another what day I will come, for I have told you that I will tell you first, MY Ringmaiden, so you can say, "Prepare ye the way, the Bridegroom doth come."
So the news can cry out and ring to MY Bride far and wide. When the Holy Angels come to you, MY Bride will know as they intercede help and pray for you, MY Bride will know, for MY Bride has a desire to be one with you, for you are one with ME. Anyone that hates this Ministry is not part of ME, for how could they be part of ME and hate Holiness and obedience?
Beware of any prophet who calls themselves a prophet, even if it appears that MY Words are coming forth out of their lips, even if it appears to line up with MY Word, if they are outwardly sinning, outwardly causing a stench to come to their testimonies. I ask you this, "Where did I ever in the Holy Scriptures command MY Prophets, or where did Abba YAHUVEH command HIS Prophets, to behave in any way but HOLY?" Have WE not always set apart the Prophets to be Holy unto US?
So you are to rebuke anyone who comes to you making excuses for sin and saying that I, YAHUSHUA or YAHUVEH have told them to sin. I remind you of this. Anyone who thinks they are date setting and sent to tell you when the rapture of the Bride will come, I have not sent them. That is why I call you the Ringmaiden and I have already told you I am coming back on a Shabbat, and anyone that says it will be on a Sunday, know they are not of ME. Anyone who says it will be on any other day but the Shabbat, know it is not of ME for I am not a man that can lie. Liars will come, and they will come to you, just as an angel of light. Why do you think so many times, the Word has gone out, this day, that day, the rapture will come, but it does not line up with what I have told you?
Study and read the prophetic messages I have already given you, and if it doesn't line up, throw it out. For you are MY Ringmaiden, and just as the crier cried out, "Prepare ye the way the Bridegroom doth come," So too I will tell you, and the true Holy Angels will come. But you need no one to tell you the date. The Holy Angels will just show up and catch the enemy unaware. Now Elisabeth, you no longer have to carry the burden when people write you and say, "Am I the Bride?" Now they can hear this prophetic message coming straight from MY mouth and they themselves can know by what the words have said, "Am I YAHUSHUA's Bride?"Beware the counterfeit bride. Behold MY Genuine Bride. This is the Last Call for MY Bride."
"Get in now, the Ark door and Book of the Gentiles is closing. Come into the Ark. Come into MY arms where there is safety. For those that call ME Beloved and I call them MY beloved Bride, MY children. Come believe once again in your BLESSED HOPE, Your ALMIGHTY GOD, LORD, SAVIOR and BRIDEGROOM. Believe in the BLESSED HOPE. I will rescue you from the wrath that is to come. For those that refuse the BLESSED HOPE, MY coming for MY beloved Bride, eloping with her in the midnight hour. You insult ME to say I will cause her to suffer the Wrath of Almighty God. She is MY beloved, why would I beat MY Bride up? I am not a wife beater.
You have already been tested and found worthy of being called MY Bride, or I would not be catching you away with ME. So Stop insulting ME and believe I am a rewarder to those that diligently seek after ME and look for MY coming and long for MY coming again. As in the Days of Noah, I warned Noah the rain would come. Though Noah knew not what a flood was he believed ME. I told Noah to build an Ark though the work was hard and mockery and persecution great. Though the work took many years to do, what I had Noah to accomplish because of his obedience, you are here today. The animals he saved, except for those you made extinct, have replenished the earth. I knew ahead who I created to have the boldness to speak forth messages, with MY RUACH ha KODESH (Holy Ghost) power and anointing that convicts the hearts of those with spiritual ears to hear and eyes to see.
Noah did NOT doubt, neither should MY Prophets today. Yet so many do, even though I speak forth MY words of fire and use their mouths to speak and hands to write and yet they dare to doubt and wonder if they are hearing from Heaven. Noah did not doubt. Jeremiah did not doubt, Jonah did not doubt, Elijah did not doubt, Ezekiel did not doubt, Daniel did not doubt, then why do MY prophets today doubt ME? I will back up the words I say. Listen not to the mockers and scoffers as in the day of Noah and Lot and Moses so it shall be again. There is coming a rain but it is the reign of MY Holy terror of the Great God "I AM's" wrath and judgment.
There is coming a flood, but not only a flood of water, but a flood of the bowls of curses being poured out I will overflow this earth with a flood of MY wrath since the time of Adam and Eve's sin against ME. As I had a Noah to warn of the flood, Moses to warn of the curses and Lot to warn that the fire of Heaven would fall, so too I will do it again, I am warning now through MY handmaiden. It would do you well to study every word I speak and write through her now. Always there is a remnant who I have that will listen and hear MY voice. Always there is a multitude who will scoff and mock just as surely as the heathen mocked Noah, Moses and Lot. Just as surely the destruction and wrath came as flood, curses, and fire for the Great God "I AM's" wrath and judgment, so it will be again.
So you would do well to hear the words MY handmaiden Elijah speaks forth. They are not her words but the words from your Creator's mouth. You begged for a message from ME. I will speak forth now. These words will anger MY enemies and cause MY children and Bride to rejoice and have joy unspeakable and full of Glory. All of Hell tried to distract Sherrie Elijah from hearing MY words I am now speaking but only hindered and could not stop ME speaking and her hearing. These words make satan shudder, for multitudes YEA, I say millions will hear MY voice and run into MY Son YAHUSHUA's saving arms of Salvation. Only through YAHUSHUA's shed Blood will anyone be spared what is to come. I am going to pour forth MY RAGE! You who are hearing or reading this shall either be spared by MY coming again or you shall live to experience MY wrath!
What you do now for MY glory and what you have done for MY glory alone will cause MY Son to spare you of the horror of MY wrath and judgment to come. The door to MY Ark is closing; quickly get in while you can. In the time of Noah the heathen beat on the door of the Ark to come into safety and yet it was too late after the wrath started falling. The first drops of rain the heathen ignored as they ignore now, but open your eyes, the wrath has been falling around the world already but to a milder degree than what it will be. Come quickly to YAHUSHUA. Accept Him as your Lord, Savior and God. You know the way to escape, what are you waiting for? The Ark is as the Ark of MY Covenant. The Ark is MY promise of safety. Only MY Son YAHUSHUA is your Ark of safety.
I will only answer your prayers in the Name of YAHUSHUA ha MASHIACH! You cannot pray in your own names, in your own boldness or strength. Dare not touch MY throne in your own names for there is no name to intercede for you but MY beloved Son YAHUSHUA. Dare not wear your robes of righteousness for I know who has MY SEAL placed on them. Those who truly are redeemed though the work of MY Son YAHUSHUA at Calvary. Come to ME in YAHUSHUA's Name, through HIS shed Blood; Stand in HIS Robes of Righteousness. So when you do this I say, "Come boldly before the Great God "I AM," your God YAHUVEH. If you try to come in any other name I will CAST YOU OUT! You will not be saved from the flood of MY wrath, the fire that will fall, the curses, the plagues in any other way but by accepting YAHUSHUA now as MESSIAH your Savior your God before it's too late.
Buddha can't save you, he couldn't save himself. Allah, Mohammed, Ghandi, can't save you; they couldn't save themselves, ALL DIED! All are in Judgment for causing others to worship them. Sun Moon cannot save you; he cannot save himself of the Judgment that is to come. Maitreya cannot save you! There is but one name that can save you and it's the Name of YAHUSHUA ha MASHIACH. Whether you call him YAHUSHUA or YAHSHUA does not matter just call upon his Name. You who call yourselves Jews listen close. You cannot enter into Heaven just by worshipping and believing in YAHUVEH's Name, although that is MY Name, it is YAHUSHUA who is the only MESSIAH.
The price MY Son paid at Calvary was for your Salvation, both Jew and Gentile alike. YAHUSHUA was crucified and tortured and died and arose again for your sakes. He paid the ransom for your sins. Both Jew and Gentile hear ME; there is no other Savior but YAHUSHUA. He is your Savior, the only way of escape from MY wrath that is to come. MY children who I created who are born Jewish hear ME. You wait for another Savior, yet you wait in vain. There is no other but MY Son YAHUSHUA. The one you have been taught to hate is the only Ark of safety. You cannot love ME and yet hate MY beloved Son. YAHUSHUA is the one I sent to earth to pay the ransom for your sins.
This is why Israel and Jerusalem knows no peace, every nation that refuses YAHUSHUA as MESSIAH WILL KNOW NO PEACE. HEAR ME AGAIN! KNOW YAHUSHUA AND YOU WILL KNOW PEACE! YAHUSHUA brings a peace that passes all understanding. YAHUSHUA is the Prince of Peace. How can you have peace and reject the only Prince of Peace. As in the days of Noah, the work was hard in building the ark. The time was long to build the ark and collect the animals. Just as it is hard for the prophets of old and prophets of today, it is not easy to speak forth MY Words! It takes boldness and you will offend more than bless. YAHUSHUA was offensive to many. So MY Prophets that speak not words that are for itching ears, but instead words that convict and speak forth MY secrets, warning to repent, yet also always offering hope and mercy.
The prophets and apostles' job is neither easy nor popular. MY Prophets get frustrated trying to get people to listen knowing these words are not their words. They give their own finances to preach forth the prophetic messages as I always have a remnant that will hear MY voice and obey. I always have a remnant that will desire to hear what the prophets are speaking. Yet, how I grieve how few are willing to labor with MY Prophets by their sides, sharing their burdens. Does not MY Word say, "Believe a prophet and so shall ye prosper," I now say unto you, "Reward a prophet and you shall receive the same rewards as they do in the Kingdom of Heaven and on earth." When paper currency becomes worthless paper and has no value any longer, I will remember if you helped MY Prophets or let them go in need.
Remember the Widow of Zarephath, if you doubt this. Did I not already know who would be willing to share Elijah of Old's burdens? Did I raise up a woman of wealth to sustain Elijah? Nay, I raised up someone that was in need such as he. They both were hungry were they not? They both had no physical wealth did they not and yet I chose the little Widow of Zarephath for I knew her heart. She was not selfish and though she was concerned, it was her and her son's last meal and then she would die and her son. Yet she trusted the prophet and believed this prophet and so she did not go in lack anymore. She put the needs of the prophet before her own needs. Remember how I multiplied her cruz of oil and it did not run dry. Remember how I multiplied her meal barrel so it was not empty.
Remember how I asked her to use her faith to give the last of what she had. Remember this MY Children, she had to borrow pots and jars from neighbors and when they asked her what she was going to put in it she had to say her God was going to fill the empty vessels. As I did for her so I will do again. Only believe! Faith without works is dead. I will do this for those who believe I will provide for them also as I did the widow of Zarephath for those who bless MY Prophets. You will want ME to bless you when your paper money and cards are worthless. I will remember now whether you tithed and gave alms when I told you to share. Does not MY Word say, "Store up your treasure in Heaven where thieves cannot steal nor rust corrupt." Store up your blessings the way you would store up your treasures. Where your heart is, what you put your trust in, is your God.
I tell you this; anyone that helped Noah was spared. But who labored with Noah? Only his family! So too it shall be again. Only MY true children will desire to help the prophets to speak forth and not muzzle the prophet or tie the oxen feet as they pull the plow. Pray for the prophets especially the handmaiden speaking this forth. Satan seeks to silence MY voice on this earth for the prophets always warn before I send MY wrath or before satan attacks. It is MY Prophets I share MY secrets with. Never do I send MY wrath and judgment until I send the prophets to speak and warn to REPENT! Satan especially hates the prophets. The office of the prophet is not easy. No one is a prophet unless they are familiar with suffering. They have suffered for the anointing to prophesy.
So now I say, "Bless MY Prophets and I will bless you. Protect MY Prophets and I will protect you. Labor with MY Prophets and great shall be your blessings especially when you're in need. Offer to hide MY Prophets and I will hide you. Share with MY Prophets and I promise you will never starve or go homeless." The time is here when it is dangerous to call oneself a prophet. It is getting more dangerous as YAHUSHUA approaches to come for HIS Bride. I shouldn't have to tell you to what I have spoken, you should know this already. Shame on you for not doing what you know I have spoken to your Spirit to do. Many times I have said, "Help them," and yet you have refused. How can you say you love ME when you don't obey ME? Get into the Ark of MY Son YAHUSHUA ha MASHIACH.
Believe I am a God that rewards those that diligently seek after ME. If you believe that you will suffer the wrath that is about to flood this earth, then you shall suffer that wrath and judgment. If you believe I am a God that rewards those that diligently seek after ME, diligently listen for MY voice and do MY will and not your will, walk when I say walk, run when I say run, stand still when I say stand still, speak when I say speak, be silent when I say nothing or do nothing until you hear from Heaven. A soldier doesn't just follow his own orders; he waits for the commander in chief to speak orders. So wait, though MY answer seems to tarry, it shall come forth. The war in the Heavenly rages on. The sound waves have been blocked thus far. How could MY Prophets speak like this handmaiden if the sound waves were not blocked, they would be gone. It's for your sakes I have let the war in the Heavenly rage. The seals of the redeemed have been sealed as satan has marked who is his.
So too, I your Father YAHUVEH have marked who is MINE. The Godly shall become more Holy. The evil will become more unholy. Woe be unto the earth for it shudders and shakes. Not only does the sky convulse as YAHUSHUA approaches earth but the earth shakes in fear and quakes in fear for it knows the evil that has been done. The earthquakes are the earth quaking in fear and they shall intensify and storms become more fierce and the lava in the mountains will spew forth for the lava is heated by MY wrath! It boils hotly against the heathen of this earth who refuse MY commandment, who refuse YAHUSHUA's gift at Calvary and who hate all that is Holy. The earth shall quake harder as the Son of God approaches. The sky shakes with the anger of satan and the war in the Heavenly. The sky labors as a woman giving birth. It will be as though the stars fall from the sky. The prince and power of the air shakes the sky, for satan knows.
"YAHUSHUA IS COMING FOR HIS BRIDE, YAHSUHUA IS COMING AGAIN!" Satan must do his evil quickly for he knows his time is very short now. He wants to take as many souls as he can to hell with him for he knows this is the only way he can hurt YAHUSHUA! For MY Son paid the price at Calvary so satan could not take you to hell with him. America, yes, there is coming war to your shores and land. But I have protected you thus far. I have waited for America to REPENT and yet this nation only grieves ME. Angers ME! The Political leaders show no shame or remorse and only become more reprobate. The people who vote for these shameful leaders show no remorse or shame.
They instead speak not for holiness but vote into office even more unholy heathens. America you have what you voted for. The few Godly and righteous I had in office have been put to open shame. Stripped naked and their jobs stolen all because they dared to speak against the false prophet of this land all because they stood up for morality and holiness. Woe be unto the people that had a choice to vote in the Godly and yet chose the heathen with spirits of the anti-christ instead. I spared MY people who were voted out of office that stood up for righteousness from being in the white house when all hell breaks loose in that place and MY wrath I openly show toward the reprobate politicians. The Harlot, remember Sodom and Gomorrah, it's in the White House. I will bless those that voted against the evil in Washington D.C. and I will curse those that voted for the evil immorality with their votes.
I shall put America to open shame before the entire world. Your leaders will weep openly for what I am going to do. But not MY children you will know what to do when the time comes. The reason you don't know yet it is not time. I am never too early or too late, I your Lord God is always on time, you just think I am late. MY timing is prefect. You can't go ahead of ME or behind ME but must stay right by MY side. All MY children those who belong to YAHUSHUA long for HIS coming again around this world, hear ME, the voice of your Creator, the great God "I AM." I will, for your sakes, send miracles like you have never seen thus far. For you see MY Son YAHUSHUA your MESSIAH approaches this earth, as this handmaiden Sherrie Elijah has told you before, I repeat once again.
It is true Gabriel has already blown his horn. The sound waves have been blocked by the war in the Heavenlies but Gabriel's horn will be heard and the sound waves unblocked. Your bodies shall be changed in a moment, in a twinkling of an eye. The dead in YAHUSHUA (Christ) shall rise first and you which remain will be caught up to meet YAHUSHUA in the air. But you shall walk in your glorified bodies witnessing for ME, warning NOT to take the Mark of the Beast for 40 days. Then you shall be the greatest witness of MY Word. Yet for the ones not changed they will grieve for they will know they must go through the Tribulation.
Then you will come with ME to meet ME in the air and together we shall meet in the air. MY Bride is not appointed unto MY wrath. Satan shall be cast down to earth in great fury with his demons falling from the sky. Woe be unto the inhabitants of earth. MY BRIDE WILL REJOICE AT MY APPEARING! Those believers who have spoken and believed that YAHUSHUA will not rescue HIS BRIDE before the Great Tribulation will be surprised as YAHUSHUA comes when they least expect the Groom to come for HIS Bride! The ones that are determined they must go through the Great Tribulation will be asleep as MY Son YAHUSHUA comes and elopes with his Bride in the midnight hour, changing mortal bodies into immortal bodies.
Then these, which were sleeping and so sure they were right, will see they were wrong. They will weep and wail for they missed their way of escape of the wrath that is to come. They will have to wait for their glorified bodies. The heathen will rage and curse Almighty God and great hatred shall rise up against believers of YAHUSHUA! For after the 40 days of the Glorified Saints witnessing and showing what they missed great grief and great rage will arise. Pray now that you will be counted worthy to be called MY Son YAHUSHUA's Bride. Pray that you will be counted worthy to escape the hour of this temptation to take the Mark of the Beast.
Call unto ME now in YAHUSHUA's Name. I am a Heavenly Father that will not cast out those who listen to these words and receive them and obey them. For MY glory alone I have spoken to you, thus you can't say YAHUVEH did not warn you. There is but one intercessor, one ARK of safety and it is the Name of YAHUSHUA ha MASHIACH! As Noah was above the waters of MY wrath so believe and you also will be above MY wrath watching from Heaven safe from Tribulation. The ones that insist on testing ME and believing I will not rescue MY Bride before the Tribulation, believing I will not count anyone worthy to escape the hour of temptation, there is hope for you also. Believe I will protect you as I did LOT and OBEY ME and you will also see Heaven.
I warn you in that time you will walk by faith and not by sight more than any other time in history. No one who is lukewarm in faith will survive MY wrath. If you find it hard now to have faith, how much harder you will find it to believe that I will rescue you and yet the majority of faith will die and they will willingly give their lives as a martyr, prefer this to continue living by faith alone. They will be beheaded for their beliefs and prefer death over suffering. Yet all those who refuse the Mark of the Beast in the Tribulation shall be saved."
-------------------------------------- Beware the yeast of the Pharisee's. It is in a multitude of the churches. The yeast causes the Pharisee's that I called snakes or vipers to manifest a spirit of religion. I the Lord your God hates the spirit of a Pharisee. They speak holy when it's convenient and when it's not offensive to them, yet they do not live what they speak. The yeast causes the Pharisee's to rise up and speak words of truth from the Bible yet throws in a percentage of lies from hell and doctrines of devils. There are two different Pharisee spirits beware of both of these I now warn you, those with spiritual ears to hear and listen. I do not want MY sheep and lambs to be led astray. The Pharisee spirit tries to destroy MY Prophets speaking. This handmaiden of MINE speaking, battles with those that come to her as enemies with the spirit of Pharisee. She has been hurt many times from the spirit of a Pharisee.
Told because she is a woman she can't be a pastor, because of her looks she can't be MY pastor, because she exposes the wolves in sheep's clothing, those out to deceive and devour MY sheep and lambs she is accused of judging them. Yet she does NOT judge them, MY Word does judge them. MY RUACH ha KODESH speaks forth convicting words and those with the spirit of the Pharisee do not want to be convicted nor exposed. This causes the yeast of the Pharisee's to rise up and try to destroy this ministry as well as many others. Yet these Pharisee's speak vain words. Their words do not fool YAHUSHUA who knows their hearts and true intents. There is no mercy for the Pharisee's without repentance.
So be forewarned this day. Beware the yeast of the Pharisee's will contaminate the entire congregation if left to continue to rise up. The very elect will be deceived if possible. Beware of the demonic spirits of the spirit of religion. I am not a religion, I am a loving relationship. The spirit of the Pharisee's say only certain denominations will be saved. There are no labels in Heaven only the redeemed of YAHUSHUA will enter into Heaven. The spirit of religion comes forth out of the yeast of the Pharisee's. They quote MY words and do not even know ME. The Pharisee's try and destroy and discourage MY true Prophets.
Don't listen to them. MY Prophets like I have trained this handmaiden speaking forth MY Words see satan's weapon that harms is not those that come in satan's name but those that inflict the greatest wounds come inflicting wounds in the Name of YAHUSHUA! I did not send them to this handmaiden speaking, as I told her these Pharisee's spirits are demonic spirits that latch onto those that hate that minister without cause. Beware of the cloning spirits also called walk-in spirits. For I warn you now MY children this is satan's newest weapon that has gone unnoticed. There are souls who have given themselves over to satan asking satan for blessings or protection. But there is no protection or blessing to be found. Instead demons have taken over their personalities and souls. Yes even in MY churches many of MY Pastors and ministers have been cloned.
They once were holy before ME. They once preached the truth and now preach the doctrines of devils. Beware of the yeast of the Pharisee's. Don't let it contaminate you. Those in the churches that see this must flee. Beware for satan sends that angel of light to entice MY flocks away from MY truth. These Pastors who once preached MY truth and relied on the RUACH ha KODESH to empower them now turn to manifestations from hell and deceiving the elect. Beware when you see sin even behind the Pulpit for the sake of that Pastor's soul, don't stay quiet. Who will rebuke them if you don't? But speak only after you have prayed to ME and sought how to approach this Pastor.
Pray for the people to intercede so the congregation will not get deceived by the yeast of the Pharisee's or deceived by the cloning spirit. What better way for satan to deceive MY elect than to enter in someone that once preached MY Gospel and brought multitudes to the Lord your God. Beware these ministers boast about their Rolex watches of fine gold. Tailor made clothes on their back, take the holy tithes and offerings and use it for their personal salary and boast about it. The tithe and offerings belong to YAHUVEH. You are to give your alms where MY RUACH ha KODESH leads you. Not always where you attend Church. Plant where I tell you to plant. Hear MY voice and open your ears and you will be amazed I am not telling you to pay for bigger and better buildings, redecoration, luxury gifts for the pastor.
I am NOT telling you to encourage his or her worldliness. You will be held accountable where you sowed your seed while you have it. This seed should not go to make a pastor wealthy. Yes, they should have an income but children why do you not even question when you see your pastor driving luxury cars and living in houses fit for a king. Why do you not even care that some pastors are millionaires. Yet they are on the airwaves on television and radio and holding conferences begging for more. They will be held accountable one day very shortly for stealing what is meant for Holy tithes and offerings and instead feed their appetites for greed.
This tithe and love offerings are to preach the Gospel around the world, and speak forth MY Prophetic messages, bringing Souls into MY loving arms. I, YAHUSHUA am VERY angry for you sit in these churches that only preach one side of Almighty YAHUVEH, the side that is love and yet refuse to speak against anything that might offend others. They don't weep over the lost souls. The yeast of the Pharisee's only wants to rise up and speak about redecorating the church, building bigger and better buildings. Paying for ministers to come and hold seminars, or musicians to sing, all the while MY people in the congregation go naked, hungry, or homeless.
These same pastors would never think of inviting these people into their own homes. Many have congregations so large they don't even attempt to recognize faces or know their names. This is not a pastor. They should be there when you need them no matter what time of day or night. The yeast of the Pharisee's says they cannot be bothered to pray for just anyone. They forget a pastor is a servant. They are to weep with MY people, rejoice with MY people; they are not above MY people. They should bear one another's burdens, encouraging the congregation to call upon them when prayer is needed. Home numbers should be freely given.
This admonition is not for all pastors. I have MY remnant also that love MY children and are there to serve the congregation in every way. These pastors go without and are in lack. For these have the poorer congregations. But great will be these pastors' rewards in Heaven. These Pastors are rich in faith and gifts of the RUACH ha KODESH. I will reward them openly one day very soon. But this message is for those who sit in the churches where the pastors sin and yet dare anyone to speak about it. How many of you reading this I have shown evil error in your churches yes in your own pastors. Yet you sit there and say nothing intimidated by who he or she is. They are no better than you are. You hear who am I to correct the pastor? At least it's a church. But when I show you wrong you are to speak it forth.
You are with holding a blessing from that spiritual leader. What if they would repent? What if they truly don't know they have offended ME? Instead you worry because your friends and family attend that church. You don't want to make waves. You may not be accepted anymore. Beware the yeast of the Pharisee's it's already contaminated you. You sow your seed into unfertile soil I am not blessing with MY RUACH ha KODESH. You see no signs wonders or miracles that follow after them that believe. So instead these Pharisee's must put on a carnival atmosphere to entertain the congregation. Beware the yeast of the Pharisee's. No wonder you count the seconds until church is over with. Can't you see MY RUACH ha KODESH is not moving there?
Can't you see the true gift of prophecy is despised? Can't you see if I were to send this handmaiden Elijah to these churches she would not be welcome? If she were to speak forth this prophetic message she would be shown the door. Test this and copy and show your pastor what is written here and other prophesies I have spoken through Sherrie Elijah. You will be amazed for you will see if your pastor has the spirit and yeast of the Pharisee. Most of you reading this recognizing the voice of your Heavenly Father will be shocked to see what your pastor or spiritual leader does with prophesies such as I have given this prophet. They may say they don't have time or just let you know they are not interested in prophecy.
Can't you see satan sends his cloning spirits to clone a person that once was Holy. But they turned away from me because of greed, pride, sin, or lack of faith. Yet now that cloning spirit now speaks forth MY words yet no RUACH ha KODESH is within. Only a clone of hell disguised as an angel of light. I will hold you responsible for sowing seed into ministries that lead MY people to false doctrines. These churches grow in abundance like a glutton they consume the wealth. Just because they are the biggest ministry does not mean they are the best.
Just because they are on television does not make them better than a small congregation. These ministers who build Media Centers to reach the world and still beg for more to pay for their multi million dollar churches and studios, they are abundant in wealth, worldliness, but not in Holiness. You who helped them lead the people astray by not speaking forth will be held accountable. I will remove your blessings if you continue to deafen your ears. This is your last chance! Stop supporting the ministries and churches with the yeast of the Pharisee's. I your LORD your GOD will remove your blessings if you continue to promote these lies of the Pharisee's.
I will bless those that obey ME. Read these prophecies to your pastor and ask permission to share them. So you will share MY blessings with others. If you feel intimated by doing this then ask yourself, why? Warn the congregation and pastor what I speak. MY words are not just for few to hear but the majority to hear. Tell them this. Just as in the days of Noah so it shall be again. A flood of MY bowl of curses that will overflow on this earth and no one will escape except those I have already sealed. Fire from the sky, fire that consumes all it touches. One third of the earth shall be destroyed. The EARTH SHAKES IN FEAR as I the Son of YAHUVEH approaches. The wrath shall consume the earth.
This earth has been worshipped and not the Creator of this earth. For this the earth has paid and will continue to pay. Creatures of this earth have been worshipped for this the creatures must pay. Man has been worshipped not the Creator of mankind for this mankind shall pay. Evil spirits of Jezebel and Ahab have been embraced in the churches, for this judgment comes to the house of YAHUVEH and on the earth. Flee from such places. Instead listen to MY RUACH ha KODESH. Listen to the Spiritual leaders with Spirits of Noah, Moses, Elijah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel, John the Baptist.
Learn of these prophets fruit, but most of all learn from your MESSIAH call upon MY Name YAHUSHUA and I will teach and lead you into all truth. Learn to listen to MY RUACH ha KODESH (Holy Spirit). There is a time coming gathering in buildings publicly in America will cause great fear. Other countries know this now. But I have been merciful thus far. You have relied thus far on that building to gather and worship ME once or twice a week forgetting ME the rest of the week. This isn't all of you but many of you reading now. You rely on that building or pastor or congregation but you have NEVER learned to listen to MY voice for yourself. What will you do when it's only you and I?
Learn now to listen and obey MY voice. Your pastors should be encouraging you to do this and encouraging you in the gifts of MY RUACH ha KODESH. Heed what MY true prophets speak, labor with the prophets, learn from their example of boldness. Satan seeks to steal your BLESSED HOPE and fill your hearts with fear and telling MY children and MY Bride that they will go through the time of wrath, stealing your joy and stealing your BLESSED HOPE. These servants of satan come as angels of light. When you think of angels sent to confuse MY servants sent by satan, think of them as fluorescent lights. It's a counterfeit, ugly and deadly. Florescent lighting feels like it sucks your energy from you. Have I not told you to pray you will be counted worthy to escape the hour of temptation that is to come on this earth? I have written in MY Word to comfort you and ease your fears.
My Children, you are not appointed to MY wrath. Instead I have given you the BLESSED HOPE. Yet you allow the false prophets to rob you of your BLESSED HOPE. Some will be saved though they refuse this BLESSED HOPE NOW! Coming very shortly they will grieve as the 5 virgins with out oil in their lamps for they will be left in the darkness without any light. They will watch as destruction comes to anyone they try and travel with those who are not MY children. Be it your husband, your wife, family or friends. Take a lesson from LOT! Those that refuse to believe I, YAHUSHUA is coming back for MY Bride and I am now on the way, will be found like the 5 virgins with NO oil in their lamps and NO way for them to buy the oil for the lamps.
The wise 5 virgins now believe I am coming at any day or hour. They watch and long for their Bridegroom to come quickly. Grieve everyday I have not yet caught them away with ME. The wise keep oil in their lamps and filled with fresh new anointing daily. Know this, MY BLESSED HOPE is real, I am the BLESSED HOPE! Refuse to allow the Ark doors to be shut without you being in MY arms. I am the ARK door. I tell you the Book of the Gentiles is closing as Dimitru Dudeman prophesied to America. He watches now from Heaven and knows he did his best to warn America. But Oh how few listened. He warned you of the coming wrath on America. For America did I not prophecy from this handmaiden speaking now, that America REPENT before it's too late for I have saved MY worst for last. But I say to MY children that live in America. Don't GIVE UP YOUR BLESSED HOPE!
Satan comes to steal your belief that I will protect those that are MINE and provide a way of escape for MY Bride! Just believe that the Heathens' woes are not MY childrens' woes! Just believe I am a God that rewards those that diligently seek after ME! MY rewards are with ME! Just as in the Days of Noah you shall be watching the destruction from above MY wrath. It was too late when the Ark door closed and no matter how the heathen beat upon the Ark door they couldn't get in. When I take MY Bride home, all left will be forced to go through the time of the Tribulation. Depending on the faith of those that call upon ME to save them will determine whether they die or are able to escape the Mark of the Beast. Only hearing MY voice and obeying ME will determine this.
Those who believe, I will protect you from above the flood of MY wrath and believe that I am not a wife beater. I am insulted to think how anyone can think, when I say I am coming for MY Bride and be ready and waiting for ME. When I say in MY Word pray that ye may escape that hour of temptation to come upon this world, when I say MY Bride you are NOT appointed to MY wrath and yet still many of you insist on testing ME. So what you speak I shall allow to come to pass. Do you believe I will provide a way of escape? For those that do and are living holy as if I will come at any moment, I will not surprise them; they are waiting for ME NOW.
[Revised January 8, 2009. PRAISE YAHUSHUA! This addition in red was found in the archives and for some unexplainable reason was omitted from this Prophecy until now.]
This Handmaiden I am speaking forth grieves each day I do not come! This is how you will know whether you're MY Bride! Are you also grieving each day I do not come or are you living like I won't be returning for years?
Are you claiming you're a ‘manifested Son of God’ that will be the one that brings Peace to this earth? For if you are then you’re wrong! Only I, YAHUSHUA, can bring peace to this World! But not until hell breaks forth on this world! When it looks like no one will survive I will come again with MY Saints behind ME! And you will see how easily I defeat the enemy of YAHUSHUA! I made an open show before! So I shall do it again!
Beware, for now I tell you a secret through MY Handmaiden, I am coming to elope with MY Bride in the midnight hours when those not watching for ME least expect ME! I shall come and prove I am not a wife beater! I love MY Bride and long for Her to be dressed in Her Immortal body, pure and spotless, dressed in radiant white!
For those not watching for ME, and believing you must suffer the Tribulation, I shall come upon you as a thief in the night! Unexpected but I will not come for you for you were not waiting! You will have to watch MY Bride get her reward of Immortal Glorified body! Behold MY rewards are with ME!
You who love ME and refuse to believe (in) this, your Glorified Body will have to wait, and you will have to suffer the Tribulation for your mouth speaks what you believe.
Those expecting their GROOM shall be caught away with ME above all the horror that is to come to this earth!
For those of you who read this and do not believe this, take a lesson from the earth for even the earth trembles and quakes as I your YAHUSHUA MESSIAH approaches earth once again! I am coming to elope with MY Bride! How many of you will be ready?
You know the time draws near! Yet you will not know the day or hour! So live like it’s today so I won't find you living like this sinful world!
Again I say, ‘The Door to the Ark and Book of the Gentiles is closing Quickly!’ I am the Ark Door! Come into MY loving arms! For those who do not know ME, I am waiting for you, are you waiting for ME? Look up, your redemption draweth nigh for those watching and waiting for YAHSHUA MESSIAH! Warn others and keep your robe spotless and white, washed in MY shed Blood at Calvary! I yearn to be with MY Bride the way she yearns to be with ME! As you see all these things to come pass, know that I am on MY way!”
When I was about 10 years old, my Mom and I occasionally attended the Seventh-day Adventist church in a nearby town. The Adventist Church was very legalistic back then, though I did not understand what that meant and so had no concept of that at the time.
I thought of myself as a Christian though I had never had a conversion experience or asked Jesus into my heart. I'm not even sure I ever heard the Gospel clearly explained to me. I gave intellectual assent to the truth, that Jesus was the Son of God who came to die for my sins, but I didn't have a personal relationship with Him. This was not a saving faith, for the Bible says that "even the demons believe--and tremble" (James 2:19).
The turning point toward disaster came when I borrowed a sermon tape from the church library. The tape basically said that Christians never sin. They probably used Scripture references such as I John 5:18 -- "We know that no one born of God sins." But this is a poor translation. What it actually means in the Greek is that no one born of God continues in sin, that is, a truly saved person will not be able to live in continuing sin.
It does not means that a saved person never sins, for I John 1:8 says "If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. First John 1:9 starts off "If we confess our sins..." This presupposes that Christians do sin. Moreover, verse 10 continues the thought. "If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a lair, and His word is not in us."
Another verse the tape may have used is Numbers 15:30. This verse says that anyone committing a willful sin shall be put to death and that no animal sacrifice is sufficient, but that "that person shall be cut off from among his people." This verse does not take into account the myriad number of verses in the New Testament, such as I John 1:9, that our sins are forgiven in Christ. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." People also fail to realize Old Testament stories such as that of King David's adultery with Bathsheba. This was a willful sin, yet he was forgiven.
What I took away from the tape, whether or not it was explicitly stated, was that if I sinned even one more time in my entire life, that I would be unredeemable. In short--it would be the unforgivable sin. When I sinned in some minor way shortly after this, I fell into depression. I felt as if, in the words of a well-known evangelist, I had "outsinned the grace of God." I thought I had nothing but hell to look forward to when I died, and life felt so short. What was even 60 more years in comparison to eternity?
I didn't dare tell anyone and the haphazard church attendance of my Mom and I must have ended shortly thereafter. I had no pastor, no mention of God in my home. Additionally, I had lost the only thing that makes life worth living--hope.
My weight dropped, not precariously, but a bit. I contemplated suicide, but what good is ending it all if I only had eternal torment to look forward to? And so I stayed alive, living in total fear. Feeling that God had forsaken me, I forsook Him. He wasn't very likable anyway. I hated Him.
Grace was missing from this picture. Also missing was the work the Holy Spirit does to help us follow the will of God.
It was about a year and a half later that I opened the phone book and randomly called a pastor, telling him my problem. He reassured me that I had not committed the unforgivable sin and that God would take me back. This could have been a turning point in my life, a turning back to God, but it wasn't. Perhaps it was because spirituality was not encouraged in my home, that we never attended church, that my Dad looked down on Christians.
Perhaps I was still angry at God and saw Him as not very likeable, much less loveable. Perhaps all of the above. But for whatever reason, whether I decided for myself or it was decided for me, I didn't go back.
If I had not lived it, I would find it hard to believe that a sermon tape could derail a person's walk with God for 15 years, yet that is what happened to me. Even though I knew the way back was open, I did not go back.
But I still had and needed to fill the "God-shaped hole" that we all have within ourselves. I hated the Christian God, so I eventually went looking for acceptance in the arms of other gods. In my late teens I became interested in the New Age, then later in Wicca. I can see now that I was still searching for truth, and for love and acceptance from God, but I was searching in all the wrong places.
How I wish I could go back in time! I would sit down with my 10-year-old self and warn her away from that sermon tape. If she heard it anyway, I would explain the true Gospel message--grace, and forgiveness of all sin. I would show her the truth of forgiveness from the Bible.
I remember a picture of me when I was about 10. I am filled with sadness as I look at that little girl and think back on what was yet future for her. How I want to fix it! How I want to stop the pain!
We live in a fallen world and the god of this world is Satan. He saw a vulnerable little girl interested in the true God and used the legalistic church she attended to draw her away. If it were not for God's direct intervention when I was 25, I never would have found my way back.
Mad at God!
I used to be really angry at Christians. And is it any wonder? They followed a God who was mean, vindictive and would smite you for any little thing you did. He demanded more obedience than I could give. I felt that God was disgusted with humanity. When I lived in Berkeley, California (1990-1992) I used to go over to the university and listen to people taunt the Christian speakers on the plaza. I would involve myself in this as much as I could.
One reason I wanted to learn about the Bible was to use it as "ammo" against them. Over a period of about eight years God softened my heart and brought people into my life who showed me Christian love. By the time I took my second undergraduate course at University I wanted to learn about it for the sake of knowledge, not as ammo.
I practiced Wicca for 4-5 years, beginning in about 1991. I was dedicated to the Pagan path that same year by the coven I belonged to, and in 1992 was initiated as a Witch. I also went to many public rituals, and began to make a name for myself by writing articles for Pagan magazines such as Green Egg, Circle Network News, and Hole in the Stone.
The Beginning of the Beginning
In 1995 I began reading my Bible again--going through the New Testament. It didn't seem to do anything at the time except fill some gap. I didn't know why I wanted to read it; I just knew I had an interest in it for some reason.
Salvation begins with God, of course, but He often uses people to accomplish His will. In that sense the beginning of the beginning was with Jim, a liberal Christian I had met on the Internet. In January of 1996 he went through some difficult times and asked me to pray for him. I began by praying to the goddess whom I worshipped at the time, but then thought that I should pray to his God. After all, his problem should be brought before his God.
I remember how humbly and apologetically I approached his God that day. I told Him I wasn't asking anything for myself, that indeed I wouldn't expect anything if I did ask. Then I presented my request for Jim. But I did end up asking for something for myself, and it turned out to be one of the most important things I have ever prayed for. I can't tell you why I did it and even now I'm not sure of the reason, but on two occasions after my prayer for Jim, I tacked on a request for myself: "God, please help me to get to know You." At the time I thought the prayer so important that I promptly forgot about it.
Life continued on as always. But God hears sincere prayers, and He heard that one. He had always worked behind the scenes, but now my prayer had given Him permission to work openly. Things began happening, slowly at first. The next milestone on my journey toward God was just over a month away, at the end of February.
Enter Charles
A month after those prayers I met Charles, a Canadian, on the Internet. He became invaluable to me over the next few months. He helped to answer my questions and concerns. I believe he was truly sent from God because the timing was too perfect.
Charles and I met when I was cruising the soc.religion.christian newsgroup. One day I posted this question: "In one hundred words or less, why are you a Christian instead of something else? Why do you believe? Please, no sermons. I've had quite enough. I just want to know why you believe what you do. Thank you."
As you might imagine, I got quite a few responses, some of them very long (I guess they didn't read the part about no sermons?), and some much more respectful of the length. Charles tried to be respectful, keeping his to 150 words. He gave me a clear, concise answer, but that wasn't what caused me to write him back. What caused that was a single line at the end of his e-mail, looking more like an afterthought than anything else, but still an honest question. "Out of curiosity, why are you a Pagan?" he asked. And I replied, and we just kept writing.
God Shows Up
A month after this, at the end of March, I went to a small Christian music concert held in the gymnasium at St. Mary's College in Moraga. It cost only $5 and was really nothing spectacular. Jesse Manibusan was opening for Margaret Becker. I have always loved Christian music and I wanted to buy a tape from Jesse (it couldn't be bought in a store.) That's one reason I went. But at the concert something happened that I will remember for the rest of my life.
There I was, minding my own business, enjoying Jesse's music, when I became aware of this incredibly loving Presence that filled the room. After being taught a God that was mean, angry, and spiteful, this Presence of pure LOVE startled me. There was no way to reconcile it with what I had learned. I hated God, ran from Him. I had spent the last several years of my life doing that. Still, He came after me. While I am sure that the Presence was there because of the music and the love of the people, and not for me, there is no doubt in my mind that I was led there. It took me completely off guard, and when I got home that night and found myself alone in my room with my thoughts, I began to think about it, and I knew some things would have to change.
It set me off on a month-long search for this God. During this time many small coincidences occurred, too many and too small to chronicle here, but more than enough to convince me that this God was real, powerful, and that He loved me. It is a scary thing to be chased by God, but exciting, too. You know you're safe and in good hands, but when you're currently worshiping other gods, you don't know which hands are the good ones anymore.
Let me just tell here a couple of the strange things that happened as God reached out for me. Days after the concert, with God very much on my mind, I was listening to a secular lite rock music station on my Walkman when the song "Right Here Waiting" came on. The chorus goes like this: "Wherever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you." I felt God calling me through that song. It was Him singing to me, asking me to come to Him.
The following day I was listening to my Walkman again when I heard the beginning of a commercial. I couldn't tell you what they were selling, but these two sentences leapt out at my ears, "Are you listening? Do you hear it?" That's all I remember, but it was enough to get me to think of God. After all, how does one not listen to God?
A few days later, another song on the radio. The chorus went like this: "I loved you, you didn't feel the same. Though we're apart, you're in my heart. Give me one more chance to make it real." In those words I felt God asking me to seek Him one more time before throwing Him away. I felt Him tell me to stop running and just give in. Trust.
There is one other thing I wish to mention before moving on: two dreams I had, one just before I was saved, and one after. The differences in their tone is worth noting. First, some background and a clarification. The Satanist in the story below is just that_a Satanist. Satanism should not be confused with Wicca, as Wiccans do not worship Satan, and in fact, do not even believe in him. It is impossible to consciously worship something you do not believe in.
Most Wiccans I knew (and still know) are wonderful, law-abiding folks who simply disagree with me in some key theological areas. They are not Satanists, and should not be confused with them. However, as a Christian I do feel that because Wicca does not acknowledge the God of the Bible, it is wrong and therefore evil, though Wiccans themselves are not conscious of this.
Ok, now on to the background of the dreams. I was attending college at the time, and in one of my classes was a Satanist, Jay. (I learned his name when we ended up having a few classes together over time and I would occasionally make small talk with him before class.) He was a nice guy, never acted untoward to me, but he freaked me out anyway.
He missed a lot classes between the beginning of the year and the midterm, but after the midterm he began to show up more frequently, and instead of sitting in his usual place in the back, moved forward in the desks until, just after my conversion, he was sitting with me in the front row, just a few seats away. Even though he had never done anything to hurt me, his mere presence became a symbol of evil in my life.
Toward the end of April, about a week before my conversion, I had a dream. I had been thinking about God so much that my mind, overwhelmed with all that was happening, put my fears into symbolic form. I'm walking toward my college campus and it's night. A van pulls up and the Satanist guy from my class is driving. Suddenly, in the way dreams just "move," I find myself in the passenger seat of the van. There is no invitation on his part, and no acceptance on mine. I'm just suddenly there.
I ask him to let me out at the next block, but he just keeps driving, and soon we are away from the campus area. I crawl behind the front seats to the back of the van, but then I realize that no matter where I go, I'm still in the van with him. I realize I need to get out. I crawl back up front. I tell him that I'm a "white-light, fluffybunny" type Wiccan and this seems to turn him off.
But the scariest part of the dreams was when I asked him, "What do you want?" I will never forget his reply: "To get to know you better." I know it was only my own fears, that evil and good were duking it out over my soul, but it shook me up a bit. It took me an hour to get back to sleep, after I had written everything down.
About two weeks after my conversion, I had a second dream, markedly different in its mood. I'm working in the cafeteria (I worked part-time in the cafeteria at my college). I'm just starting my break and am in line at the taco bar to get some food. On the other side of the bar is Jay, also getting some food. He asks me if I would like to go to the movies with him and I tell him no.
Right at that point, out of nowhere, a man who I took to be another student, speaks up and tells Jay to lay off me. Jay asks me if he is my boyfriend and I tell him no, wondering myself who he is. Jay and my mysterious "rescuer" exchange a couple more sentences that I don't catch. At the end, Jay tells the newcomer "You'd better be careful," and then he goes to sit down to eat. The new guy just sort of disappears. I couldn't tell you what happened to him. I go to a table away from Jay to eat my food.
Charles said that he thought my "mysterious rescuer" was him because he was praying for me, basically "standing in the gap," and that this sort of thing did not make Satan happy. Perhaps on a subconscious level I knew this and hence had the dream.
Visions and Prayers
There were many times over the month of April that I prayed to Jehovah, asking Him to help me. Toward the end of the month I reached the point where I told Him that, though I wasn't willing to follow Him, I was willing to become willing. Another time, about a week later, I asked Him to help me to love Him.
I prayed that I would get to know Him and learn about Him. I prayed that He would show me the way He wanted me to go, walk with me down it, and tell me what to do to serve Him. Often I "felt" Him listening and knew I was heard.
I knew that if I was going to get to know this God that I would have to learn to trust Him. And so I used a technique I'd learned as a Wiccan.
I visualized myself on one side of a doorway with the Goddess standing near me. Jesus stood on the other side of the open door. I remember saying to Him, "Give me one good reason I should follow You?" His response stopped me in my tracks: "Because I love you."
Jesus kept reaching out for me, telling me to take His hand. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't do it. And then, one night in mid- to late April, it happened. I closed my eyes to do the visualization, and I could take His hand! I knew that He wanted me to step through the door as well, that stepping through the door was a sign of real trust, but it was a few more days until I was able to do that.
Once I had done that, I knew I was crossing a line, a line of trusting God, maybe only a little, but more than in years. He was patiently working with me, knowing that I could never ask Jesus into my heart if there wasn't at least some trust there, however small.
April of 1996 was the most difficult month for me with coincidences abounding. I felt God reaching out for me, and yet I kept shrinking back. Due to my interest in Christianity I was currently attending a class in Christian history at my college. The teacher believed in the hands-on approach, and one of our assignments was to go to some services and write a report. We had to attend Orthodox Lenten and Easter services, and a Catholic Easter service. So there I was, struggling with God very hard, and having to attend all these services. Don't tell me God doesn't have a sense of humor!
Acceptance
Finally, on May 3, 1996 at about 6:45 p.m., I called Charles and had him pray with me, and gave my life to Christ. But it wasn't during the prayer that I felt it. It was when I said, "I want Jesus in my heart" that I felt it. I had accepted Him. I was Christian. Me, the Witch, a Christian! Ironically, this was four years to the day of my dedication to the Pagan path--to the very day.
Later I discovered that Charles had had a strong feeling for half that day that he should pray for me, and that at the time of my phone call he had been, off and on, for about six hours.
Riding the Fence
Of course, I didn't stop my Wiccan activities right away. Soon after my conversion I attended a large Pagan festival in Northern California. I felt it may be my last Pagan "fling", so I went even though I knew God didn't want me to.
However, I didn't count on Him showing up.
Within a day and a half of arriving I was very confused. I realized later that going there was like walking into a spiritual battle without armor on, like Paul writes of in Ephesians 6. As a new Christian I was a target of the enemy, and here I was willingly walking onto the enemy's ground with no protection! I was so confused that I called Charles (all the way in Canada!) on a pay phone. He told me to talk to God. I said I didn't know if God would listen to me because I was being so bad. He assured me that God would hear. I agreed to think about it. Two or three hours later I went out behind the Meadow Building, sat under the oak tree, and began speaking to God out loud, not a prayer really, just talking. But He heard and He came.
I hadn't spoken two sentences when I sensed this Presence under the tree with me. As at the concert, it took me off guard. Unlike the concert, this was a completely personal experience. He was there for me, because I had called Him. I expected Him to be angry with me for doing something I knew He didn't want me to do, but He wasn't. Now I know that He meets each of us where we are and gives us exactly what we need. I needed understanding and compassion at that point, not judgment, and that's what He gave me.
But His presence made me angry. I didn't know what to say, and I wasn't going to repent. He was being too loving by coming to the festival, coming after me, so I told Him to go away. He refused, remaining near. I repeated the command. He still didn't move. Finally I had to get up and walk away. If He wouldn't leave, I would. He remained close for the rest of the festival, reminding me that He was there just waiting for me to call on Him, to come back. Needless to say, all this made a big impression on me. Later, an acquaintance of mine, Bruce, the man who later baptized me, told me He didn't go away because I had invited Him into my life when I gave myself to Him. He wasn't about to leave me alone.
Choosing Sides
I was baptized at the end of the summer, but not without having to first choose sides. Two days before it was to happen, Bruce discovered that I had not yet renounced Paganism. He told me he wouldn't baptize me unless I did. It was hard for him to tell me this, and hard for me to hear it, but it needed to be said. I am glad he put Christ and the Gospel before the comfort of either of us. He helped me to understand how important baptism is: How could I undergo a death and rebirth initiation ritual unless I really was dying to my old life? How could I be raised to new life in Christ if I was still holding onto and practicing the old ways?
I mention my baptism because it was an important turning point. I call it my "Joshua moment" because, like Israel with Joshua, I was being given a choice of whom to worship. I made the same choice they did, a conscious decision to worship only Jehovah. Giving my life to Him on May 3 was only the beginning, as I had not given up worshiping other gods. He worked with me and on me, patiently walking me to this decision point.
Results
Much has changed in my life since I accepted Christ. I have a sense of peace I never had before. Somehow this God puts to rest all the doubts that the Goddess never could. Even when I run from Him I know He still loves me and that someday I will be with Him in heaven. He answers the questions about this life, and the life to come. He tells me everything will be okay, and that He'll never abandon or forsake me. He shows justice tempered with love, which is mercy.
Directly after my conversion my relationship with my boss improved dramatically. Where once he threatened to "let me go" because of my bad attitude, he no longer spoke of this, and became downright friendly. My co-workers also mentioned how happy I seemed all the time. (Dancing with my mop as I clean the floor is not depressed behavior.) Other people have noticed that I complain less. I also worry less. I had a bad attitude and was irritable.
The Goddess was not very helpful when I wanted to change these self-destructive behaviors. I was, in fact, unable to change no matter how hard I tried. With God, I didn't have to try. It just happened. The peace and joy He gives really is beyond all understanding, and one's attitude cannot help but change when bathed in this love.
Some people will tell you that Christianity and Wicca can be blended, that you don't have to give up one to practice the other. This is untrue. I tried to blend the two, but at every step the Holy Spirit told me I had to choose (Joshua 24:15).
I've naturally begun to re-evaluate who the Goddess is. I've noticed that there have been times when I was in life-and-death situations and called out to her, only to get no response. One situation occurred in January, 1996 when I was hit by a motorcycle as I crossed the street. In my pain and fear I called out to her. I received silence. She promised she'd never forsake me. She lied.
Conclusion
We worship a wonderful God! Who else than the God of the Bible, the only true God, Jehovah, could take an initiated Witch worshiping other gods and bring her to the Gospel light? What other God would bother? I deserved justice, and justice dictated that I continue to live, and eventually die, in the dark. But God, in order to show His mercy and magnify His glory, stooped down to me even though I had persecuted Him and blasphemed the very glory I should have worshipped.
I used to worship other gods; now I worship the one true God. Under Joshua's leadership, the Israelites were given a choice of whom to worship: "Choose for yourselves today whom you will serve" (Joshua 24:15). Joshua then told them who he would worship: "As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord" (24:15). And the Israelites chose the same: "Far be it from us that we should forsake the Lord to serve other gods" (24:16). Like Joshua and the Israelites, I too have chosen to follow the Lord, and Him alone.
This story doesn't have an end, as no story about one's life ends until that life comes to an end. I hope this helps or enlightens you in some way. May God bless you richly as you search for and walk with Him.
She is not only openly gay but she is the first in America to be embraced by the White House which included the President of the U.S.A., as they held a dinner for her and her same sex partner she claims to have married. I, YAHUVEH call Ellen DeGeneres, Ellen Degenerate. She is reprobate and knows no shame as she is rewarded by satan with fortune and fame for she was the first to claim same sex marriage and knows no shame and is proud of her name. Start protesting and boycotting and warning all who will listen anyone that watches this film and listens to her mock I, YAHUVEH, and does not protest in fear will reap what she will sow.