This testimony is about my husband and how he got free from sexual addiction. He came from a religious family (controlling). He became addicted to porn and masturbating. His family almost broke us up soon after marriage, and I was so upset all the time, he felt rejected by me. He used it as a comfort, so he went back to the porn and masturbation. He had had a problem with it in the past, but it had been fine up to this point when he felt rejected. Then it got BAD. The more he felt like he'd caused pain in my life, the more he hurt me, the more he turned to sexual sin. He got me pregnant when we were on our late honeymoon. Now i got pulled into sexual sin with him also. But he actually DID rape me a few times, it really hurt too, cos he always wanted so much sex and my bits couldn't cope with the demand. The pain would be excruciating sometimes.
Anyway he got me pregnant while we were on our late honeymoon. And i was pretty upset when i found
out, cos i was still thinkin bout leaving him and was scared that if i did his family would try n take my child off me. i got so sick with the pregnancy i lost 8kg in less than 2 months, vomited all day, in bed all day pretty much, he had to go get me weird foods n stuff. this is when he went rank with the sex stuff, would be sittin downstairs in the garage masturbating over porn on his mobile while i was upstairs waiting for him desperately to bring me some food that would bring me relief. I found porn on the computer a few times. Anyway we moved for me to go back to uni to finish my degree, we are 22, and then, because he wasn't working, he went really bad into the porn. I prophecied at him one night without knowing what he had been doing, that if he didn't get help now, he would have an affair..
It was spot on because turns out he'd been havin that desire growing towards one of his female friends who i had told him repeatedly to stay away from (and he sneakily met up with her a few times) for coffee etc. So anyway, he just confesses like EVERYTHIN one night, i'm so broken i can't believe it, God tells me i can choose to forgive or not, he is begging me to not leave, when i mentioned that i was considering it he starts hyperventilating (mini panic attack) tells me he'll do whatever it takes to keep me.
Anyway, on the way back down he's driving (he was in another state for work when it all came out), he's crying out to God and God hits him like he's never been hit before, he gets home n he's drunk in the Holy Spirit insanely. He prophecies all this stuff over me that is spot on, not to do with him, to do with the fact that God loves me etc. That night, after he calmed down, he wanted sex, and i REALLY didn't want it. He pressured me, so i let him, but then, he turned the light on during, and i felt this dirtiness as he looked at my private parts, so i turned the light off, he turned it back on. was HORRIBLE. Felt so damaged after. Next night we pray thru this stuff on www.porn-free.org and i MADE him read psalm 119 cos it's all about he word of God, he can barely get the words out cos this demonic presence is trying to stop him, he couldn't focus, his vision was blurred, he was tired, complaining, fidgeting, it took him about 20 minutes to read it out.
So he starts prayin this stuff, confessing this
stuff off the site, it has specific prayers see. then he can hardly speak, so he binds this thing from manifesting in Jesus name. It throws him off the chair, convulses his body, he commands it to get off him, it does. He fasts, has done a few fasts, can all of a sudden read his bible, in fact is DEVOURING it, then we commanded in Jesus name any further demons to be exposed. so he does another fast, (just 24 hours no food only water) and he wakes up masturbating one night while he's away, calls me, in desperation cos he's finding it so hard to stop, so i tell him to, start prayin an he manages to stop. we pray specifically that God'll expose whatever other spirit it is or is there, then he falls asleep n has a dream, God tells him to bind the spirit of sexual idolatry. so he does (awake in bed) and the spirit chucks a fit and tries to drag him off his bed by his
feet, PHYSICALLY. He rings me at like 5am like freaking out, crying i think, telling me about it, n i tell him that it's trying to drag him to
hell with it.
Anyway, we both go to this prayer ministry thing and they identified that first spirit as a controlling spirit of lust, and they prayed this thing where he renounced his past sexual relationships (he had not slept with anyone else since we'd been married), had 3 girls before me, anyway they break soul ties, and they pray then that every part of my husband who had been left in these girls would be returned to him, and vice versa. I also prayed about an ex of mine, who i hadn't slept with, but wanted to in my heart, and still had some kind of attachment to him.. i felt a part of me return.
This demon wants him back, keeps tormenting him, trying to make him give in, but he's continually
fillin up on the Word and it's empowering him, he's even encouraging me with so many scriptures. it's awesome. If anyone out there struggles with this I
am telling you go to the www.porn-free.org site. It is amazing and it will set u free if you do the freedom journey things. God never lets us down. He saved my husband and our marriage and our family.
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